Every Little Details

Once again; I could not do anything today except loving you,
My phone kept ringing; I didn’t give a fuck about who is calling
Neither I browsed on Facebook, nor enjoyed my aquarium
I restricted all the troubles from entering my mind today

How many kisses we shared, I don’t even know
So finally I decided to calculate love today.
1 year and 11 days since last night
I can be the world’s biggest lover, or you like to call biggest douche
I can snuggle with you for hundreds or thousands of years.
I don’t know anything about;
Eternal Sunshine of Spotless Mind, neither Titanic, nor Notebook, or Love Actually
but I do remember every little details about how we both fall in love

I Have To Leave!

Only one thing left for me that I have to leave here!
I am so tired of what we couldn’t have.
All my days which I spent without you, there was always someone else.
All the moments; you acted towards me with such unfairness, and lies so my world got into darkness.
All the moments; I acted towards you with little love, and not being grateful the idea of love so your world got into weakness.
My love was quiet, calm and not agitated so you fall into deeper and deeper
Your love was calm, quiet and not agitated so I didn’t get scared and get closer to you
My love was quiet, calm and not agitated so you fall into deeper and deeper
Your love was calm, quiet and not agitated so I didn’t get scared…
Believe me; I couldn’t see the fault, or the gossips after you.
If there is anything else you want to say; promise I will listen…
Wish you know what’s lingering inside of me, or what’s stopping me every night.
I couldn’t forget, once and all I wait only you.

Only one ne thing left for me that I have to leave here!
I am so tired of what we couldn’t have
Believe me; I couldn’t see the fault, or the gossips after you.
If there is anything else you want to say; promise I will listen…
I couldn’t forget, once and all I wait only you

I Forgot To Remeber

click on the image and spend some money

It won’t be that easy, of course I will be sad for a while.
You will leave a mark on me like others did it to you
Maybe I will be angry with you that you might find it childish.
I will be still holding on your things,
and my fingers are wandering around them one by one.
Which one you used to love the most?
Yes there will be shame even after many years.
That will make me cry, that’s right I am still in pain but don’t worry about me.
whatever happens, I will forget you.
Forget that I loved you; forget about how we used to make love.
Forget about me too like every other lie.
Those loves don’t exist anyway, they were our hopes.
After some time all we got elderly hopes.
Forget that we broke up, and loneliness is a lie anyway.
Forget me like every other lie you told me.

Don’t even mention it, my friend…

Because of a lover like her, don’t suffer
Like I used to, my friend…

Don’t be fooled by those tearful eyes,
By those deceitful words,
Don’t be fooled, my friend…

You thought the one who left will come back.
Now you understood that you were suffering for nothing.
She left you behind.
Why remember her name
Don’t even mention it, my friend…

Don’t think that one day she’ll come back
And ask for your forgiveness
Wake up, my friend…

Tear apart or throw away her pictures
Forget her name.
Don’t even mention it, my friend…

You thought the one who left will come back.
Now you understood that you were suffering for nothing.
She left you behind.
Why remember her name
Don’t even mention it, my friend…

TRAFFIC

“What’s that dropping down from your cheeks
It is never worth of tears…
Even tough; love is for two people
Than how come we end up one?
Both of us very successful in ending things
I don’t have to buy flowers
They don’t have to cry as well
Maybe we get together again at a random dusk, like this time we meant to be together again at that random dusk in traffic
You should know breaks ups teach to heart to love more

What’s that dropping down from your cheeks
It is never worth of tears…
Even tough; love is for two people
Than how come we end up one?
If somebody “new” comes on your way,
don’t forget we should still love each other.
I don’t have to buy flowers
They don’t have to cry as well
Maybe we get together again at a random dusk, like this time we meant to be together again at that random dusk in traffic
You should know breaks ups teach to heart to love more”

Redraft Me

Apparently your “I’ll come”;
Was your way of getting rid of my heart and my love
Apparently your “I’ll come back”;
Was your way of breaking promises and oaths
Apparently when you said “I’ll take it”;
You meant my sin and my curse

Nights are weary, sorrows are weary
Screams are weary, songs are weary
Whatever left from them wrapped around my heart
I’m waiting for their come, the only thing left is my life

Let the earth burn who cares?
No one burned like my insides
If one day i would walk off from world
Believe me your love would redraft me

We will deteriorate

No option with you and none without you life is unpossible unfortunately
Not being together and not being apart without resolution or reason
Not in dreams or in hopes while being happy was our wish
You are not guilty and neither am I and now you are without me and me without you

A moment will come and all will turn into ashes
When our souls will rest
And when we will find comfort in another love
That will be the day that we will day deteriorate

Around us an emptiness will cover us without limits
And all of a sudden all will look meaningless and thats the day when we will deteriorate

Busted

My dad got arrested 😦 what were you thinking daddy? 😛

Yapmakla olup bitseydi bu is, hemen yapardın, olup biterdi degil mi baba?

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Oh my #Allah or #God (what ever u wanna name it) my #dad is in a big #debt and a warning from #acab I mean cops, by the way my mom is a great #economist 🙂

Lost

The sky filled with dark grey clouds out of sorrow
like painted in pathetic black
The rain is pouring down gently washing away our tears
like crying for the two of us
I am starting to lose hope as time goes on.
If breaking up with you will be my master
than who is going to be the slave

Your hands got pale in my palms
It was a wounded timid bird
It fluttered and flew because of an ended love

I wish I could say “take care of yourself”
But my throat is knotted, my words are lost
You won’t love anyone else again through your life
Because my heart is lost in your body

The angels will come down from white clouds
Their prayers, their wishes; they will protect you
But I will be scattered every day with your yearning
In the faraway lands of this love

We are an uncompleted story from now on
We are walking on separate paths
And you call this “that’s life…”
or right people wrong time.
You blew to the faraway places like a vagrant wind
I will live with a wilted rose in my heart for a while
If that’s a living!
We are going to sleep at separate nights,
and we will wake up in separate mornings from now on
More mistakes don’t mean you are more in love,
We will be consoled with different skins in vain
And we will be injured secretly
Keep in mind that
I will keep the best place for your memory
In my messed up heart,
With strings of melancholies in my hair,
With diminishing suns in my eyes,
I will always wait for you in my dreams
In order that you may come back and wake me up from this nightmare
Take care of yourself, you beloved!
Take care of yourself, you didn’t even love little tiny bit…

God Bye

There is no possible dream in this world of ours
even there is one I beg to god for none

If one day the world of ours become a stainless place
I wouldn’t go against to soul of time

Whether I cry for months
If I sleep for years
Even if he is not exist, I will bring him into existence and beg
But if the world of ours stays like this
I give up and rise against to god

Leave me alone to my self,
Don’t follow me anymore, God Bye…

I touched surface of the sea so I can make perfect circles
I fall in love with a nonexistent person in every Spring
and I suppose a nonexistence a world of ours

Leave me alone to my self,
Don’t follow me anymore, God Bye…

*even if you lose trust in him, he will always believe in you*

Kites

The women whose favorite color is purple, favorite word is “rebellious”, favorite game is to hurt me,
her rancour is the footmark of wound that coming from her childhood.
The women who measures the time with wounds, she is at loggerheads with her past,
she is a little girl who prays the god at nights but go against at him in the day.

Like kites with their ropes coiled up.
We could neither fly together without minding the world,
nor go away to our different roads.
Scattered by the wind, and don’t mind things at all.
You and me…

She stringed the hearts she broke on a string like a necklace I forget to buy which has broken from her…
Still, she hurt herself the most.
She leaves bread crumbs behind;
so that the birds would eat her footprints.
Her favorite noise is my voice
whereas, she didn’t ever want let me talk or she able to listen,
she never want to love me andShe has never taken root so she could walk away one day

Like kites with their ropes coiled up.
We could neither fly together without minding the world,
nor go away to our different roads.
Scattered by the wind, and don’t mind things at all.
You and me…

Still finding each other somehow.
Even though we were cheating on the ones we love.
The woman to whom I made love through tears

Like kites with their ropes coiled up.
We could neither fly together without minding the world,
nor go away to our different roads.
Scattered by the wind, and don’t mind things at all.
You and me…

The woman with whom I fell asleep at nights
Only to wake up alone each time

Who Is Fault?

If You Listen This Song

If you listen this song, let it be something meaningful.
Let me think that you think about me right this moment.
Such as; you miss so much too but you can’t just say it.
Maybe waiting a message from me right?
I hear you…
Apparently our hearts become one!
When you are crossing my mind I got surprised for a second.
I kept singing the same song without getting tired, tired…

If you listen this song, let it be something meaningful.
Let me think that you want me right this moment.
I want to let you know that I miss you so much too but
I can’t tell you the way I think
I wait one step forward from you and you realize…

Apparently our hearts become one!
When you are crossing my mind I got surprised for a second.
I kept singing the same song without getting tired, tired…

To Look At You On A Brand New Page

Everything can be done with a white paper
Plane for example,kite for instance…
Can be put under a table which is wobbling
because one of the foot is shorter than the others
or a poem can be written about a life which is shorter than others.
Everything can be written on a white paper, except you
Hard to find a comparison to your beauty.
The best thing you can do;
to ask the things which are trying to resemble to you.
Like to a rose, to spring, to autumn…
Maybe the cure is in nature, and the cure of you resembling to a flower
and my desperation as a gardener with calloused conscious
I understand from plants but I can’t tell the speech between soil with the sun
The speech which is a flower more likely or almost like you

You give me light, I have so many buds
my roots are hidden inside of me
There are no one who comes, goes, blooms and no knot
You want a poem with comparisons in it; excuse me my dear…
There is nothing in me which can be resembled to you

I am a passenger who is coming from a long way without preparation
I passed from wounded or wound-less loves
a white paper emptiness in my heart
I told everything which is, is not, hurts, aches…
Wish I knew; everything were to arrive you.
All pangs, all stabilized friendships
If I knew; I would run faster,
I would come with willingly paces
to your eyes’s coral greens.

Looking at you is like looking at wind
Looking at you is like telling a miracle
The roads which I walked carelessly are witness
If you are inquiring love, my magnificent. Only handcuffs are suspects
It doesn’t matter whatever I say because if you know,
you will remember the ones who sell, and make artificial flowers
are not the gardeners but merchants…
As you are such a eye, such a soil and sun partnership
As you are heaven slippery on your skin
writing a poem to you is foolishness

There is just a word between my teeth
I call you as my rose and rose’s life start to get longer
I want that all my promises remain in you
I call you as my rose and now rose is immortal because of resembling to you
all the poems I wrote are foreword for a book which is starting to you by you

Looking at you is like looking at a white paper
which is ready to be everything
looking at you is like looking at wind
be ashamed of the appearance you saw
looking at you is like denying all the coincidences
and telling a miracle
looking at you means believe in God